sat- 1012
Yesterday, yup,like planned, i met him, though it was almost six when i finally met him. But he was sweet, greeting me with his eyes first.. hehe.. sweet..
It was too late to catch a movie, so we ended up jus having dinner. Then the dinner took so long to be served, i was almost losing my patience, then when it finally came, we jus couldnt finish our food, which was rare.. but oklah, not that bad, we finished wateva we possible could, it was jus the spicy otah that we didnt finish.
then we went home... and history repeated.. i was SOOOOO crushed!!! i tot he wanted to be home early to watch the game, but it turned out that he HAD to b home by a certain time to do duno wat... i was so devastated! i tot, why cant he jus enjoy the game as a game?!?! i jus kept quiet all the way.. he still held my hand though and i did wave him goodbye, but i was quite sad that he didnt even turn back to look at me after alighting the bus.
I told him i was sorry and that i will be responsible for the consequences that resulted from him getting home late. Then i called him to ensure that all was ok. Luckily all WAS ok.. he told me that he wasnt mad at me, jus mad at his frens and i was quite relieved. Then he told me not to think so much, but i said, how can i not think... when my future looks sooooo uncertain?
So i plucked up my courage and asked him the question.. and .. well.. his ans DID REALLLY surprise me!! i didnt noe at all! i really tot it wasnt like that at all!! to think that i was sooo worried for nothing.
Phew!! THANK GOD!! for once, i was really relieved that everything is perfect as i wan it to be, finally, after sooo long of waiting... my patience has finally paid off.
I was really glad after that call.. finally, thats one BIG burden off my chest ...
SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH...
So, then everything went well.. he forgot to call.. AGAIN... but its ok now.. haha... ya.. it took me forever to finally get it into my little head that its OK if he doesnt call me at nite. slow me huh... i jus hav to keep reminding myself that when we are in the same house, theres no need to ask him to call anymore.. hes jus by my side. :)
Right now, i m jus looking forward to my day out next wed, jus a day for me to be by myself all alone.. PLease GOD, let me enjoy that one day, thats all i ask, jus one day for me to live myself alone... please... insyaAllah.. please..please grant my one and only wish... i dun mind staying home everyday after that.. wif some breaks of coz.. please..
It was too late to catch a movie, so we ended up jus having dinner. Then the dinner took so long to be served, i was almost losing my patience, then when it finally came, we jus couldnt finish our food, which was rare.. but oklah, not that bad, we finished wateva we possible could, it was jus the spicy otah that we didnt finish.
then we went home... and history repeated.. i was SOOOOO crushed!!! i tot he wanted to be home early to watch the game, but it turned out that he HAD to b home by a certain time to do duno wat... i was so devastated! i tot, why cant he jus enjoy the game as a game?!?! i jus kept quiet all the way.. he still held my hand though and i did wave him goodbye, but i was quite sad that he didnt even turn back to look at me after alighting the bus.
I told him i was sorry and that i will be responsible for the consequences that resulted from him getting home late. Then i called him to ensure that all was ok. Luckily all WAS ok.. he told me that he wasnt mad at me, jus mad at his frens and i was quite relieved. Then he told me not to think so much, but i said, how can i not think... when my future looks sooooo uncertain?
So i plucked up my courage and asked him the question.. and .. well.. his ans DID REALLLY surprise me!! i didnt noe at all! i really tot it wasnt like that at all!! to think that i was sooo worried for nothing.
Phew!! THANK GOD!! for once, i was really relieved that everything is perfect as i wan it to be, finally, after sooo long of waiting... my patience has finally paid off.
I was really glad after that call.. finally, thats one BIG burden off my chest ...
SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH...
So, then everything went well.. he forgot to call.. AGAIN... but its ok now.. haha... ya.. it took me forever to finally get it into my little head that its OK if he doesnt call me at nite. slow me huh... i jus hav to keep reminding myself that when we are in the same house, theres no need to ask him to call anymore.. hes jus by my side. :)
Right now, i m jus looking forward to my day out next wed, jus a day for me to be by myself all alone.. PLease GOD, let me enjoy that one day, thats all i ask, jus one day for me to live myself alone... please... insyaAllah.. please..please grant my one and only wish... i dun mind staying home everyday after that.. wif some breaks of coz.. please..
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