finally...peace..

Semalam, aku pergi JALAN RAYA!! finally... the only day in the month that i looked forward to finally came tanpa aral melintang..
We went out to one another's house dari kul 11 to 9 malam. And finally, i mustered up the courage to update them about my situation.
Knowing my own character, i reallllyyyy didnt want to tell them cos' i didnt wan them 2 get worried over me... but like yr-honour said, i cant keep everything to myself.. its really not healthy.
So, i updated them... of coz not all of it.. in fact jus the minor things, bukan utk memburukkan my no1, tapi utk mendapatkan pendapat dorang, sama ada i m in the right path or not..
After telling them, oddly, i felt guilty for telling them, but at the same time, i felt soo relieved, its like a huge huge burden off my chest...
Even while in the midst of telling them, he called, and i talked and felt as if nothing ever happened..
Well... deep deep in my heart, i KNOW i love him.. n all these years i have sacrificed evrything i possibly could, jus for him, even at times at the expense of my own happiness, my own wishes, my own wants. But i did anyway, sometimes i still feel that i AM the dumbest girl to still be with him.. but then again.. i still believe that we met FOR a reason.. so.. i am still holding on..
So.. ya... so i was very happy semalam.. for once... i could 'sleep in peace'.. Alhamdulillah..