i wish i wish
Please... help me forget him... i noe in my heart i never loved him, i never got that close, i never had any opportunity to feel any love from him. he taught me the meaning of trust, he thought me the meaning of missing someone, but it wasnt him who taught me the meaning of love.
i KNOW who i LOVE wif all my heart. i have sacrificed all, done stupid things that i could have only done out of love and nothing else. he has been the one i love since jan 2000 and i intend to love only him throughout my life. its tough being with him and i wanted out duno how many times, but at the same time, i wish i can be his forever, that strong a feeling can only be a long-lasting bond between us that is meant to last for the rest of our lives...
i noe i never loved the other one. i never had the chance to. i gav all the hints i could, but nothing happened then. i waited enuf.. i was with him as he started r'ship, broke off, started a new one, broke off, started a third one, broke off.. i was with him through out all the years. even now, i noe he noes how i feel... maybe he noes even more than what i noe i feel myself.
i dun tink its love.. is it??? i duno... serious.. wat i noe is that hes jus there, lingering in my mind and till now, i m still trying to find a reason why. i try my best not to think of him at all, by not going there anymore, not looking at them on the road, not looking at no 7, not msging him abt our common interest, not doing anything at all that is linked to him somehow. but some things are inevitable. i still see no 7 on the road, i do catch green mobiles on the road, he surely comes to my mind when i m watching those ... but of coz i jus push the thoughts away as they come.
hopefully, He will help me really get over it... and my no1 support will surely help. i have my no1, i have my Yr-honour.. they are all i need to get over the past. i did get over, they jus somehow came back, 4 duno wat reason.
hopefully i will get the ans too anyway... i wan us to be friends still... its jus that now... its hard to see him as purely a friend, as how i see Yr-Honour now.
I love my guy... too much i tink, but i dun mind... and i really wan to be with him... unless.. he is really not meant to be mine..
jus like mind-reader once told me: "i leave it to Him to decide who is best 4 me"
The same goes for me too...
i KNOW who i LOVE wif all my heart. i have sacrificed all, done stupid things that i could have only done out of love and nothing else. he has been the one i love since jan 2000 and i intend to love only him throughout my life. its tough being with him and i wanted out duno how many times, but at the same time, i wish i can be his forever, that strong a feeling can only be a long-lasting bond between us that is meant to last for the rest of our lives...
i noe i never loved the other one. i never had the chance to. i gav all the hints i could, but nothing happened then. i waited enuf.. i was with him as he started r'ship, broke off, started a new one, broke off, started a third one, broke off.. i was with him through out all the years. even now, i noe he noes how i feel... maybe he noes even more than what i noe i feel myself.
i dun tink its love.. is it??? i duno... serious.. wat i noe is that hes jus there, lingering in my mind and till now, i m still trying to find a reason why. i try my best not to think of him at all, by not going there anymore, not looking at them on the road, not looking at no 7, not msging him abt our common interest, not doing anything at all that is linked to him somehow. but some things are inevitable. i still see no 7 on the road, i do catch green mobiles on the road, he surely comes to my mind when i m watching those ... but of coz i jus push the thoughts away as they come.
hopefully, He will help me really get over it... and my no1 support will surely help. i have my no1, i have my Yr-honour.. they are all i need to get over the past. i did get over, they jus somehow came back, 4 duno wat reason.
hopefully i will get the ans too anyway... i wan us to be friends still... its jus that now... its hard to see him as purely a friend, as how i see Yr-Honour now.
I love my guy... too much i tink, but i dun mind... and i really wan to be with him... unless.. he is really not meant to be mine..
jus like mind-reader once told me: "i leave it to Him to decide who is best 4 me"
The same goes for me too...
posted by crystal at 11:39 PM
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